I have a massage fetish...?

[Cole]

I am wondering if this is bad or not, because I have heard of people having fetishes such as, foot fetish, hand fetish, trampling fetish, etc. I have a massage fetish, I love receiving massages. I mean, more than the usual person does. I absolutely love it(not sexually like some of the foot fetish creeps xP), I even love watching others get massages, it makes me feel good inside. I would love to get a girlfriend who absolutely loves giving massages as much as I love getting them(a double fetish thing...). I know there is probably no girl in the world with a fetish like that, but I am wondering if I might need psychiatric help... I love massages so much that, if I see somebody tapping their pencil, pen, etc. off of a desk or rubbing the tip down the desk, and it makes a pleasing sound that reminds me of a massage, I hope for them not to stop, as it gives me a happy/pleasing feeling(yet again, not sexually for all the people that think I am just a perv...). I also love it when I am laying down in the middle of the night, and my cat starts kneading the blanket on top of me, it reminds me of a massage and somewhat feels like one, so I love it and hope for it not to ever stop. Even though this is the internet, I still feel absolutely embarrassed typing this up..., but I really want to know if I may need psychiatric help, and if this is a normal thing, how do I satisfy my massage fetish(without having to pay, I don't have a lot of money, so that is my big problem). Would it be normal to try to find a beautiful girl that has a fetish of rubbing people's bodies(massage)?

Plz help...

P.S.
Also, Massage chairs have no effect on me, they are robotic things that I care not for... The only massage chair I ever liked, was one at the mall(it felt reaaaaaaaaally good)!
@James
Thx for the compliment(but you went a little too much into detail XP), I am hoping that there are more people like you and me, so I do not feel that I have something screwed up in my head. BTW, I am not into dudes, sry, lol. I have nothing against men loving men(or women loving women), just not gay myself.

@ScottAZ
I was thinking the same thing, I am wondering if there is something messed up in my head, I am hoping it is just a fetish some other people have too.

 

[ScottAz]

yep, you need some mental health counseling.

 

[JAMES]

Honey I would love to have you in my life. I used to love having someone comb and brush my hair. Usually it wasn't sexual but one time it was and I shot in my pants. I like to give massages also but for me that is more sexual. I have given massage and also managed to shoot in my pants so if you were here we would find a way to incorporate the message into fore play and I have no doubt it would increase our pleasure beyond our wildest hopes. Let me know what you think or anyone else can give their thoughts. PLEASE....